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I know the world will never be the same,
Conversations in my head;
Hours entice me then desert me.
Time for bed, mommy said
I just can’t look my problem in the eye,
I just can’t let myself say goodbye.
Just one more hour,
Just two,
Just three then four.
Life starts to blur,
A mess of books and computer screens,
Late night conversations with understanding friends.
Childhood will never be the same,
Not the two-shoes I was before,
No there’s something more to that.
Does everything happen for a reason?
I am beginning to think not.
I lose control,
Lose my soul,
Never to be the same again.